After not thinking of him for... years probably, I dreamed rather suddenly of the very first guy I was ever 'in love with'. I was 12, he was too, he was blonde, freckled, spoke his mind, and had a fabulous voice. He was a mormon, and so his excuse for not dating me, when I asked, was that his religion said he couldn't date until he was 16, so I quietly bided my time with other passing crushes, while the years passed. I'm not sure if he ever would have dated me, (I was seeing someone else by the time he turned 16, but just barely). But in the passing time he'd become more agressive, less interested in school, and less interested in music. He seemed angry, but I think it was just a teenage boy thing. Even though I was perfectly satisfied with my boyfriend at the time, I always had a soft place in my heart for this guy, and wanted to see him do well, and spend some time with him.In light of his sudden reappearance in my subconscious, I looked him up on Facebook and he looks great. The most recent pictures of him are from his brothers wedding and he seems happy. His most recent update, from about a month ago, says that he's leaving Facebook and planning on deleting his profile, including his email should anyone want to contact him.
I'm not sure if I do, or not. What little Facebook-stalking I could do indicated he is still very devoted to his Mormonism, and I'm not sure that he's be interested in hearing from an old high school flame. I have little doubt that my fondness for him throughout my adolescence was never really returned, although he did seem to respect me. But even if I don't ever email him. It's nice to see that he seems to be well.
funny how people come to mind after so long. Perhaps you could email him - it doesnt have to go beyond one email if it doesnt feel right.
ReplyDelete@Alice After finishing this blog I decided to go ahead and do that. Figured what's the worst that could happen?
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad to hear you did that. Things in life really change. The worst thing he could do is ignore you and not return the e-mail or message. Sometimes people come to mind for a reason!
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I mentioned an old crush in my flashback as well!
ReplyDeleteThat's sweet. I wonder if I have any secret admirers? No, probably not.
ReplyDeleteI remember with fondness all of my old crushes and, even though I'm happily married and would never dream of contacting them, I still feel happy when they seem to be doing well. It's almost as if they are characters I'd created for a novel...and in fact that's probably what they really were, images more in my mind than in the real life we briefly and so coincidentally shared.
ReplyDeleteAhhhh old crushes...hey you never know how things can go unless you reach out...good luck to you. (^_^)
ReplyDeleteThanks for the comments I'm glad I emailed him too, although I haven't heard back. It would be simply curiosity, I'm happily (and newly!) married myself.
ReplyDelete@Lilibeth, I definitely see what you mean about as if they are characters. Especially a crush that you never got to explore, the person is so much fantasy in your memory. Perhaps is best if I never hear from him.